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Watashi dake? (Only Me?)
All lyrics written by Keiji Haino English Translations by Alan Cummings

1.  My refuge

Pour into me       within me
Something       sinks down

My body's axis       twisted in on itself
My heart       turned into       two

Contorting       each and every thing
Sending it back       to its origin
To confirm       this my refuge

Twisting,       my ...



2.  The disallowed

The disallowed
The disallowed
Disallowed to live
      even in the darkness



3.  Rise from the dead

Rise from the dead
Rise from the dead       your voice
Rise from the dead       your ...
White, white face a blooming flower
Rise from the dead now       undying



4.  Lay it open

Even now to speak       of it
Is forbidden
But its (the brutality of prayer)
Reality       I will       lay open



5.  Bring to an end

Bring yourself, by yourself       to an end
Bring yourself, by yourself alone       to an end
Do not mix with the black       do not mix with the white

Bring yourself, by yourself alone       to an end



6.  I can't do it properly

I can't do it properly       I can't do it properly
I can't do it properly

I can't do it properly       I can't do it properly
I can't do it properly       I can't do it properly
Any better than now

I can't do it properly       I can't do it properly
I can't do it properly       I can't do it properly
I can't do it properly       I can't do it properly
I can't do it properly       I can't do it properly

I can't do it properly       I can't do it properly
I can't do it properly

imitating myself       imitating myself



7.  More More More

Trembling       trembling
Trembling       trembling
      Calling



8.  Even if I break through

Even if I break through,
Even if I break through
      It's still the same       now
Even if I break through
Even if I break through       Even if I break through
      It's still the same       me
Even if I break through       Even if I break through
      It's still the same       you
Even if I breath through       It's still the same       me



9.  Falling apart

Falling apart
            Falling apart
                  Falling apart
                              Gracefully
      Falling apart
      Falling apart



10.  Try to come this far

Try to come       this far
Try to come       this far

What do you see?



11.  Though I want to laugh

Though       all I want to do is laugh
Though laughing       is all I want to do
Though       I want to laugh
      It all gets       distorted



12.  I want to return

I want to return to that place from whence I came
To that time       when there was neither
Form       nor       color

I want to return to that place from whence I came
To that time       when there was neither
Form       nor       color



13.  Devotion

What am I doing?
It flows in
      me
It flows in
      me

If flows in       towards me
If flows in       towards me
            Gracefully
My axis       starts to shift
My axis       starts to shift
Inside you       it starts to shift

Where do you want to go?
Where do you want to go?
Where do you want to go?